2010-11-14 15:54

liksi stovėti ant pasaulio krašto, nuo kurio ilgesys akmenukus mėtys.

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Kai paskutinį kartą apkabini sau brangų žmogų, supranti ką reiškia gyventi, gyventi viena akimirka. Pasaulis slysta iš po kojų, o tu su prisirišimo kupinom akim paleidi jį. Paleidi iš rankų, iš gyvenimo ir minčių. Žiūri į jį nueinantį. Nori paskutinį kartą sušukti, jog nepamirši. Bet balsas užstringa gerklėje. Jis neatsisuka. Ramini save, jog neatsisuka, nes kūnas nebeklauso. Neverki, nes nebeliko to, dėl kurio verktum. Ramiai stebi visus aplinkui, ir bandai įžvelgti trūkumus, o į savuosius pažvelgti bijai. Matai, kaip visi lieja ašaras atsisveikindami ir mojuoja pro stiklines duris. Matai, kaip žmonės pradeda vertinti vieni kitus tik netekdami. O ji tave vertino nuo akimirkos, kuomet pirmą kartą tave išvydo. Gali patikėti? Vertino kiekvieną tavo apkabinimą, kuris tau galbūt nereiškė nieko. Vertino valandas su tavimi ir troško jas paversti amžinybe. O tu vis vien negrįši. Pakilsi, kur mano rankos nepasiekia, ir liksiu stovėti ant pasaulio krašto, nuo kurio ilgesys akmenukus mėtys. 

Grįžtu iš oro uosto, įeinu į kambarį pilną jo kvapo ir šypsenos ant aprasojusių langų pasilikusios. Atsiremiu į sieną, ir pakeliu galvą į lubas, kuriose jo juokas žvaigždes sudėliojo. Užsimerkiu, nes jos nenaudėlės į akis spigina, degina, taip, kaip ankščiau degino tavo akys.

Ir skaudžiau, nei matyti, kaip griūva tavo gyvenimas, yra žinoti, jog tu statysi jį per naują, tik jau be manęs.

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